So I am back at home for a few more days. I have been having trouble sleeping and feeling very anxious, so I decided to give myself some more time to recover.
I'm pretty sure that I am having withdrawal symptoms from the pain medication I was on.
All the same, I have been feeling upset about the whole situation. It is very scary to know that my life can be so easily destroyed. What if it was cancer and I couldn't go back to work for months? I would lose my home and everything else I own. It makes me question my decision to leave my marriage. Maybe it would be better to be in a situation where I would have a family to help take care of me. Maybe it is wrong for me to try to be so independent.
One thing is certain. I really need to get back to work and do my best to try to save money so I can handle emergencies. And I should try a little harder to get a federal position.
Anyway, I am feeling better today. I'm going to try not to worry about things I can't really control.
