Worries

So I am back at home for a few more days. I have been having trouble sleeping and feeling very anxious, so I decided to give myself some more time to recover.

I'm pretty sure that I am having withdrawal symptoms from the pain medication I was on.

All the same, I have been feeling upset about the whole situation. It is very scary to know that my life can be so easily destroyed. What if it was cancer and I couldn't go back to work for months? I would lose my home and everything else I own. It makes me question my decision to leave my marriage. Maybe it would be better to be in a situation where I would have a family to help take care of me. Maybe it is wrong for me to try to be so independent.

One thing is certain. I really need to get back to work and do my best to try to save money so I can handle emergencies. And I should try a little harder to get a federal position.

Anyway, I am feeling better today. I'm going to try not to worry about things I can't really control.

Healing

Well, my stomach pain turned out to be an ovarian cyst and landed me in the hospital. So they took out the parts and now I am officially in menopause. I'm still healing from the surgery and I can't wait until I am able to run and jump around again. For now, there is pain and I still get really worn out quickly. Worst of all, I can't ride. I have at least three more weeks before I can even think about starting.

Oh the bright side, no more PMS!

2010 Update

Introducing Quaker.

Well, the diet was bad for me. Definitely caused some health complications. I've decided I'm just going to keep on living. Who am I trying to impress? Life is too short to be worried all the time.

On a good note, I have been at the new job for four weeks now and things are going great. The drive is OK and I get home in time to walk Bailey. I'm getting used to having to wake up and dress every morning and I have had to buy a lot of new clothes for the office. But I am very happy with the folks I am working with and I look forward to learning a lot.

I have been working barn crew every other week and while it is grueling work, I am enjoying it. Hopefully finances will even out and all will be well with the world.

Success of a Sort

So it has been a tough go on this diet. Between the holiday travel and my occasional weakness, I have only lost 10 pounds. I have another 2 weeks on the plan and I really hope I can go down at least another 10. I think I am going to have to plan on doing this again in a couple of months. It really does work. The weight comes off and I don't really feel hungry. But the diet plan is very boring and that's what gets me. I just can't eat chicken, cucumber, tomatoes and an orange for every meal.

That being said, it is the first time I have been on a diet that has actually worked for me. So it is totally worth it.