So, I have been very sick just because I met someone I liked and indulged myself over a weekend. Everything was safe and consentual and yet I am on three different medications and have been in pain for over a week. I hope that I am well for my trip. I am very worried about that right now. More then anything else I just want to go back to being able to walk my dog, ride horses, run and work out, like I did just a couple of weeks ago.
So what is the lesson here? Maybe this means that even in the healthiest of situations I am just not my best in relationships. Maybe the idea of being single as a lifestyle choice, is actually the healthier choice for me?
I like sex and I generally feel like I would like to be in a relationship with someone, but every time I move in that direction something smacks me back down. I might mean it's time for me to just learn to be very happy on a daily basis with myself.
