Meeting

This morning I have to go into DC to meet with my primary client. One of the negatives to working at home is that I never get used to the meetings and being around clients all the time. So once again, my tummy is in a knot and my mind keeps imagining the worst for the meeting.

I wish I was normal.

I have once again lost my urge to date. I got several emails from match.com over the holidays and some of them actually look very nice. I was supposed to call one of them last night to chat, and I completely forgot. I'm so tired of dating.

Yesterday

Work up and went to my workout...

10 minutes on bike
1.5 miles on treadmill (1st mile in 12.5 minutes)
2 sets of chest exercises using pully machine

At this point I started getting head rushes because I stupidly forgot to eat anything before the workout. My head started pounding at the end of the sets. We tried to do some sit ups but my muscles started trembling. So we stopped, did stretches and she let me go 10 minutes early making me promise that I will get a scone (yes a scone!) on the way home and that I would always eat before our workouts.

Went home and showered and hit the road, grabbing my coffee, scone and a banana and some pecans for the trip.

Got to the Borgata around 3, absolutely starving to death and not feeling very well. Ordered a steak and mashed potatoes and a glass of wine to try to relax myself a little.

I didn't feel well enough to play poker well, so I stuck to the slot machines. They took my money, but entertained me until 6pm when my head is really starting to pound.

I continue on to the hotel in NY. By the time I get to the hotel, headache has become a migraine. I check in around 8 and decide I should try to take a nap. Only my migraine is joined by a panic attack (don't ask me why). So I get up, take my meds and something to put me to sleep and decided the best thing I could do is sleep until morning.

So here I am, ten minutes away from the restaurant opening, starving, but feeling much better. I'm going to get myself a nice breakfast and relax until it's time for the party.

Drew

So after a couple of cocktails last night I came home and wrote Drew an email. I told him that I was upset that he wasn't more responsive and that I never seem to be able to get a hold of him and it made me distrustful of him.

This morning I got an email from him apologizing. He has been working extra hours since he was gone for so long. He realizes that he can be a bit distant and agrees that maybe he just isn't available enough for me.

He says he would still like to stay in contact and remain friends, which I told him I was fine with.

So I may have jumped the gun with the email, but really, it was driving me nuts anyway. So I am sad, but at least I know where we stand now.

I have a breakfast date from match this morning. It is a guy who has been trying to get a date with me for a very long time. He didn't really seem like my type so I had said no, but I guess I figured I didn't have anything else going on, so I might as well meet him.

Drew was the perfect man for me. I wish he was around more.