It's December. I can't believe the year went by so quickly! So much has happened this year. I feel like I have grown. The surgery did wonders for my confidence level and I am really enjoying being more active. Leaving BSA and going off on my own was the best thing I ever did. I feel so much more relaxed knowing that my fate is decided by me and not by someone else who thinks they have a better plan for my life then I do. It is going to be a truly great 2005!
I am trying to be more aggressive about dating and trying new things. I joined eHarmony again to see if that was a more serious relationship dating site. The only problem is that you don't really get to know the person who you are trying to get in contact with. Plus they have very few matches. And when you do have a match you often don't get any response from them. So I am going to let it expire in January and I joined Lavalife again. I really don't like the meat market atmosphere, but at least you get to talk to folks and who knows... Maybe I will actually find someone I like.
Alex and I are still having fun together and he is a sweetie. Kelly and Karl are awesome. I have also began making some cyber friends on the motley fool message board.
I purchased some new bedroom furniture that I am very excited about and I put a new stereo in my car. I am also going to buy myself a blue diamond "I love me" ring for Christmas. I will find out if I will actually get it today.
I need to do my Christmas cards today. I will be going out to Colorado for xmas to see the Jones'. My sister wants me to make time to see her as well, but I just don't know when I will have time. I am only going to be there for three days and a lot of that time is already spoken for. I'm not entirely sure why she puts so much pressure on me to see each other especially since she seems to dislike me. Anyway, I think I am just going to mail their gifts to them and try to not feel guilty.
Bailey will be staying with Kelly and Mila while I am out of town. As I am writing this she is curled up next to me sleeping on the sofa. I love her so much that it amazes even me. I wonder if that is the feeling that most women need when they have children. Something to rain affection on. Men tend to get sick of it if you do it to them.
Well, that is my update. Things are great and they are only going to get better. I wonder what the new year will bring...
Saturday, December 11, 2004
Saturday, November 13, 2004
Cha-cha-cha-cha-changes
Job
We are in business. Things are very stressful as BS tries to keep from going under. Looks like we are off to a good start and I am very excited about my future. Mike is great and is giving me a lot of good advice as well as some excellent opportunities. I hope we can return the favor and bring him some work. I am refinancing so that I have some emergency money. Mike is also cute but I must keep my mind on business for now.
Friends
Kelly is great. Right now Mila is staying with me because Kelly has guests in town. Looks like we will all be going out to a club in DC tonight. Should be fun.
Dogs
I almost had a new baby. Henry was a puppy that needed a home and actually came home with me for about 4 days. Unfortunately, it was a very bad idea. He and Bailey fought the whole time. He was also not house trained yet and with all the other stuff going on in my life, I decided he needed a different home. He was a sweetie and I hope he finds some one who loves him.
Boys
Jerry never contacted me again. I don't know what I did wrong, but I have decided that even if he did call me at this point, I couldn't trust him enough to date him. Alex, on the other hand, is becoming a very important part of my life. He is great. He is honest and loving and great in bed. He wrote me the sweetest email I think I have ever got from a man. Of course, nothing changes the fact that he is 8 years younger then me, but for now we are having such a good time that I don't care. I am still looking to meet someone who would be good in terms of a real long term relationship, but there is no rush.
Family
The holidays are coming. I will get going to visit Dan and Vas for christmas and staying home for a nice relaxing thanksgiving with Bailey. I am going to try to keep my gift budget down since I won't have a lot of money between now and christmas.
We are in business. Things are very stressful as BS tries to keep from going under. Looks like we are off to a good start and I am very excited about my future. Mike is great and is giving me a lot of good advice as well as some excellent opportunities. I hope we can return the favor and bring him some work. I am refinancing so that I have some emergency money. Mike is also cute but I must keep my mind on business for now.
Friends
Kelly is great. Right now Mila is staying with me because Kelly has guests in town. Looks like we will all be going out to a club in DC tonight. Should be fun.
Dogs
I almost had a new baby. Henry was a puppy that needed a home and actually came home with me for about 4 days. Unfortunately, it was a very bad idea. He and Bailey fought the whole time. He was also not house trained yet and with all the other stuff going on in my life, I decided he needed a different home. He was a sweetie and I hope he finds some one who loves him.
Boys
Jerry never contacted me again. I don't know what I did wrong, but I have decided that even if he did call me at this point, I couldn't trust him enough to date him. Alex, on the other hand, is becoming a very important part of my life. He is great. He is honest and loving and great in bed. He wrote me the sweetest email I think I have ever got from a man. Of course, nothing changes the fact that he is 8 years younger then me, but for now we are having such a good time that I don't care. I am still looking to meet someone who would be good in terms of a real long term relationship, but there is no rush.
Family
The holidays are coming. I will get going to visit Dan and Vas for christmas and staying home for a nice relaxing thanksgiving with Bailey. I am going to try to keep my gift budget down since I won't have a lot of money between now and christmas.
Tuesday, October 19, 2004
Tuesday, October 12, 2004
Monday, October 11, 2004
New Developments...
Well, while I am dealing with some negatives at work, there are some new positives developing. Les and I have decided to go into business together as partners. We have a phone conference with our first clients in the morning. If all goes well, we could be making the first steps toward leaving the company.
Which might be a good time because they are currently trying to reduce my pay by reducing my bonus program. I think it is an excellent time to go into business for myself and doing it with Les would make me feel a lot more secure about doing it.
I had a great weekend with Jerry and I just loved spending time with him. Not sure how much he likes me yet, but I am hoping it is enough to keep seeing me.
Only time will tell...
Which might be a good time because they are currently trying to reduce my pay by reducing my bonus program. I think it is an excellent time to go into business for myself and doing it with Les would make me feel a lot more secure about doing it.
I had a great weekend with Jerry and I just loved spending time with him. Not sure how much he likes me yet, but I am hoping it is enough to keep seeing me.
Only time will tell...
Friday, October 08, 2004
Fall is here...
It is Friday and I am taking the day off. Going to practice my violin, do some shopping and get some exercise.
The weather has definitely changed. I have been turning the heat on in the morning because it has been getting quite cold at night. Not sure I am ready for the time change, but I hope my treadmill will keep me active and in shape.
Bailey is funny. She gets up to go outside in the morning and then comes running back upstairs full speed and charges back up to bed to get under the covers. I think she is trying to tell me it is cold outside.
Alex is nice and we are having a good time together. I have also gone out on a date with Jerry who is very nice. Jerry is going to take me for a drive on Skyline in the vette tomorrow and I am looking forward to it. I hope to get some nice photos of the leaves changing.
All in all, life is good.
The weather has definitely changed. I have been turning the heat on in the morning because it has been getting quite cold at night. Not sure I am ready for the time change, but I hope my treadmill will keep me active and in shape.
Bailey is funny. She gets up to go outside in the morning and then comes running back upstairs full speed and charges back up to bed to get under the covers. I think she is trying to tell me it is cold outside.
Alex is nice and we are having a good time together. I have also gone out on a date with Jerry who is very nice. Jerry is going to take me for a drive on Skyline in the vette tomorrow and I am looking forward to it. I hope to get some nice photos of the leaves changing.
All in all, life is good.
Tuesday, September 14, 2004
Wednesday, September 08, 2004
The virtue of kilts.
What a wonderful weekend. I had an Ok date on friday, but Saturday was more fun then words can express. My friend Amy and I went to the MD Renn Faire and met up with two of her friends. It was singles weekend and you can imagine that 4 single girls, two beers and lots of cute men walking around in kilts was cause for trouble.
We flirted our asses off!!! I verified the non-existance of underwear under a particularly nice kilt. I also tried speed dating, which was interesting. From that I got introduced to a 24 year old. He is very cute and seems to be a good guy. I don't know if there is a posibility of romance, but he certainly seems like he would be fun.
I have to admit, sometimes there is a good side to being single.
We flirted our asses off!!! I verified the non-existance of underwear under a particularly nice kilt. I also tried speed dating, which was interesting. From that I got introduced to a 24 year old. He is very cute and seems to be a good guy. I don't know if there is a posibility of romance, but he certainly seems like he would be fun.
I have to admit, sometimes there is a good side to being single.
Friday, September 03, 2004
I PASSED!!!!
Yep, I am an official CISSP! I can't believe it! I was absolutely sure that I was going to fail.
Things are pretty good right now. The job is a little stressful, but things are under control. It is definitely strange watching the business grow and change.
Kelly and Mila are going great as always and Bailey is wonderful and a joy.
My weight loss is also going well. I have lost a total of 27 pounds since I got Bailey and today I ran an entire mile and a half out of 2.3 miles.
This is going to be a very busy month. Danny and Vasiya are going to be getting married (finally!) on the 9th so I need to fly out to Dever, then I will be going to Niagara on the 17th and will be meeting a man I have been chatting with for a few weeks now. It might prove to be a very enjoyable weekend indeed...
Things are pretty good right now. The job is a little stressful, but things are under control. It is definitely strange watching the business grow and change.
Kelly and Mila are going great as always and Bailey is wonderful and a joy.
My weight loss is also going well. I have lost a total of 27 pounds since I got Bailey and today I ran an entire mile and a half out of 2.3 miles.
This is going to be a very busy month. Danny and Vasiya are going to be getting married (finally!) on the 9th so I need to fly out to Dever, then I will be going to Niagara on the 17th and will be meeting a man I have been chatting with for a few weeks now. It might prove to be a very enjoyable weekend indeed...
Sunday, August 22, 2004
This is your brain on CISSP...
Just got out of my CISSP exam. I studied for it all day yesterday and took a two week boot camp to prepare. Not sure if I passed or not. Right now I just feel tired. Tomorrow I will start to feel anxious about the results, which I probably won't see for a couple of weeks.
If I pass, my reward will be waiting for me in Niagara Falls.
If I pass, my reward will be waiting for me in Niagara Falls.
Friday, August 06, 2004
Such a good girl!!!
Well, it is friday and I made it. I did two meetings this week that both went very well. Everything is going according to schedule and my clients love me. Les is awsome and I am so glad I have him on my team. Now I just need to get him some help.
I did need to sedate myself for one of the meetings due to panic, but I actually talked to my client about the fact that I was having the attacks and he was so incredibly supportive. I love working with him and hope that I can always work with him, even if I leave Breakwater in the future. Not that I see any reason to do that for quite a while. I am very happy with my job even though it does stress me out sometimes.
Life is looking pretty good going into the weekend.
I did need to sedate myself for one of the meetings due to panic, but I actually talked to my client about the fact that I was having the attacks and he was so incredibly supportive. I love working with him and hope that I can always work with him, even if I leave Breakwater in the future. Not that I see any reason to do that for quite a while. I am very happy with my job even though it does stress me out sometimes.
Life is looking pretty good going into the weekend.
Monday, August 02, 2004
Under Pressure
Back at work and I have so many things that I have to do that I am losing my mind a little. I keep getting started and then feeling overwhelmed and I stall. I need a pep talk and I need to hire one or two more folks to work with me out here so I can focusing on managing things.
I'm going to have a conference call with the owner of the company tomorrow to discuss the federal division and some of the problems that I see. I hope it goes well. I have to get the idea out of my head that my job is in danger when there is nothing to worry about. Deep breaths.
Online dating is a strange thing. I am currently corresponding with a man who is very intelligent, successful and funny. He also has beautiful blue eyes. So far I like everything that I know about him. But we have never met and I am trying not to get my hopes up that I will really like him because it has been way too long since I have really liked anyone. Kelly says I am due to meet a nice guy. I hope she is right.
I'm going to have a conference call with the owner of the company tomorrow to discuss the federal division and some of the problems that I see. I hope it goes well. I have to get the idea out of my head that my job is in danger when there is nothing to worry about. Deep breaths.
Online dating is a strange thing. I am currently corresponding with a man who is very intelligent, successful and funny. He also has beautiful blue eyes. So far I like everything that I know about him. But we have never met and I am trying not to get my hopes up that I will really like him because it has been way too long since I have really liked anyone. Kelly says I am due to meet a nice guy. I hope she is right.
Friday, July 30, 2004
It has been a very busy week. I am in a boot camp training class for my CISSP. The material isn't all that hard, but there is so much to know. I am scheduled to take the test on the 22nd and I hope that I pass. I am very pleased to be getting to know my instructor. His name is Eric Cole and has been in security for his entire professional life. He is very impressive and I am hoping that I can possibly use him as a mentor.
I forgot to mention that I got my breast reduction surgery two months ago last tuesday. I am very happy and healing well. I feel so much better about the way I look and I feel like I have gained a new sense of confidence.
Work is the same as always. Part of me is stressed that I am going to lose my job and the other part thinks that they can't do it without me. I get so much positive feedback from my bosses, but I guess there is just a part of me that thinks there must be something else going on. I am going to have a conference call with the owner of the company next week to discuss some of the issues going on out here and to make sure he knows that I am not still having panic attacks.
I have been trying to go out on a few dates, but still haven't found Mr. Right. I will keep my fingers crossed.
I forgot to mention that I got my breast reduction surgery two months ago last tuesday. I am very happy and healing well. I feel so much better about the way I look and I feel like I have gained a new sense of confidence.
Work is the same as always. Part of me is stressed that I am going to lose my job and the other part thinks that they can't do it without me. I get so much positive feedback from my bosses, but I guess there is just a part of me that thinks there must be something else going on. I am going to have a conference call with the owner of the company next week to discuss some of the issues going on out here and to make sure he knows that I am not still having panic attacks.
I have been trying to go out on a few dates, but still haven't found Mr. Right. I will keep my fingers crossed.
Friday, July 23, 2004
Kelly's site rocks!!!
http://www.graphicintent.com/
She is the coolest person I have ever known and I am so happy we met.
http://www.graphicintent.com/
She is the coolest person I have ever known and I am so happy we met.
Thursday, July 22, 2004
Ok. Time for an update.
Bailey is awesome and she and I have become very good friends with a wonderful girl named Kelly who also has a wonderful dog named Mila. Mila and Bailey love each other and are so funny to watch together, though I think at times Mila gets more then a little tired of Bailey always hanging from her neck.
No real news on the dating front. I have gone out with a few men, but they all pretty much sucked. So I am back to being single again, which is just as well.
I am back on my panic meds. I had some trouble attending a couple of meetings and I decided it was time to try to get help again. Turns out that I am more likely suffering from a social phobia, rather then a panic disorder. Hopefully that is more easily corrected.
The job is as it has always been. Sometimes stressful, other times boring. My finances are shaping up and I have purchased my first home. All in all, life is going very well and I feel happy. Now I just need to find someone to share it all with.
Bailey is awesome and she and I have become very good friends with a wonderful girl named Kelly who also has a wonderful dog named Mila. Mila and Bailey love each other and are so funny to watch together, though I think at times Mila gets more then a little tired of Bailey always hanging from her neck.
No real news on the dating front. I have gone out with a few men, but they all pretty much sucked. So I am back to being single again, which is just as well.
I am back on my panic meds. I had some trouble attending a couple of meetings and I decided it was time to try to get help again. Turns out that I am more likely suffering from a social phobia, rather then a panic disorder. Hopefully that is more easily corrected.
The job is as it has always been. Sometimes stressful, other times boring. My finances are shaping up and I have purchased my first home. All in all, life is going very well and I feel happy. Now I just need to find someone to share it all with.
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